I don’t know the reasons, and never will

I just feel the pain within

There’s no one to help, no one can

So I just hurt myself

 

I know its wrong, I’m a freak

But it’s the only way it will go away

I look at myself, and I don’t deserve

The life that was given to me

 

When nothing will work, or go my way

What else am I supposed to do

They tell me that it doesn’t help

But what the hell do they know?

 

I cannot convince people that I need help

I’ve always been so strong

But I can’t do it anymore, I just cant

My whole world is falling apart

 

I’m fed up of pretending life is great

Smiling all the day through

I hate my life, I hate the world

Why wont they just let me die?

by Sam - (May 2003)