Fighting ill

Don't know how
Don't know when
Don't know why
…but it happens

It scares me
Like walking alone
Through a dark wood
…when it happens

I think it's him
But I can't be sure
Like someone's there
Squeezing my lungs

I can't breathe
I can't think
I make no sense
…it just happens

I feel so angry
I want to die
I hurt everyone
…and it happens

I have no control
I can not help it
But I'm always scared
That next time it'll be worse